Alone and depressed

The story of David

I suffer from achalasia these past 5 years and it has stolen my life. I cant eat meals now only soft blended watery foods not all foods as it sit in .y esophagus for ages. I get dehydrated alot now and with it comes depression severe pains in kidneys and esophagus. I have looked for ppl on www to talk to ppl who suffer from this torturous disease but havent found any yet. I now sit in all day curtains drawn thinking of suicide. My son needs me so that keeps me strong. I will finish now but will return later to see if there are ppl who are like me.